So it officially been a month since my debut release and while the numbers are hardly in reach for the Billboard Hot 100, I must say at this point its almost feeling just the same! I definitely want to thank you guys! I say it all the time but I can NOT do this alone and I am certainly not alone. From you guys that check up on me every now and then and share me with your friends, the friends who have listened to and screened every song I’ve made from conception to execution, to those who nag me everyday making sure I’m still working on this… I love you dearly, I need you and I am grateful. Getting something like this done in Chicago was no walk in the park, though you might imagine it would be. I mean it is Chicago after all, and there are tons of professional studios. You’d expect if you were willing and ready to pay real prices, for an assumed real product, you’d get the real deal with no hiccups right? Well I got a real reality check and life lesson, I’ll tell you that much. For all the fancy studios still around in the city, many of them are laden with not so real engineers, that have no clue what they’re doing. Even if they do know what they’re doing, they need to know what they’re doing in YOUR STYLE of music, otherwise its about the same as being clueless. But its not like they will tell you if they are, the industry is thin they want and need the work! For the time it took me and the money I’ve ultimately wasted to get going, I could gone to school for engineering and done it myself…..kinda wish I had…but you live and you learn right? Besides I already have to wear more hats than I’d like to and I don’t want to be an engineer, I just want to write and sing (preach)! They say the closer you get to accomplishing something great the more the universe will block you from it. I guess testing how bad you want it and what not. From my experience it MUST be true and I must want it REALLY bad. I mean I do but its really been one of those, -I didn’t know my own strength- epiphany’s. I’m actually amazed I have not and did not give up. The circumstances behind my personal deterrents were so extreme and obtuse even reflecting on it seems completely, amazingly unbelievable. I’d rather not go back into details, but I’ve even walked in places with money and left out empty handed. There were so many moments I felt I could finally breath, only to be kicked in the face with a figurative ‘cleat’ of disappointment. I even meshed well with an engineer who was really adamant on helping me out, only to find that he didn’t start dodging me out the blue but the reason he hadn’t gotten back to me is because he died in a car accident….. taking some of our work with him. Still haven’t really wrapped my head around that one. Literally everything that could have gone wrong, did. After 2 years, 5 different studios, 7 different engineers, thousands of dollars wasted, along with time, much frustration and countless tears and I still had no finished product. I just kept going. I cant even remember when it turned around, maybe it really didn’t but I just keep going and now I’ve become numb to the setbacks. Well not really but it got easier. Hell, I’ve been working so hard for years, with no adequate monetary compensation. But like they say if it were easy, everyone would be doing it. But you do it cause you love it, because deep down you know you were born to. Well…I do. Even still, I’m so happy to have made this milestone, the first time I’ve released original music of mine to the public. And its going over well, I cant complain….I wont complain rather. Things have been feeling more so downhill lately and I’m so excited about my actual album. There is so much more to do and all I ask is that you keep supporting me because I need it. I’m only human. When I hit a set back hard and I’m feeling really down and someone I don’t even know sends me a message telling me that I’ve touched them and keep going because this I what I’m supposed to be doing, it puts me right back on track and I keep on trucking forward. I’ve said it before and I’ll keep saying it….THANK YOU.
Love and Music